Today, had training. Did some stuffs with the Siglap team and watched some videos.
Was really tired so I felt like sleeping.

I don't see why they have to pull us back to school.
Why don't they just let us enjoy our holidays, or at least. Let us finish up our work at the last week?

Today, i was carrying my heavy harversack while waiting for the bus.
I stuffed quite alot of stuff inside for school + training.
The bus stop was just crowded with many people, adults who have probably just finished their work and hitting off or something. Then slowly, I started to feel myself falling into a ditch. Like, I just felt really not myself.
Like, everyone else is at home or going out, enjoying themselves, here I am dragging my bag which is pulling me down, lower and lower.. While waiting for the bus ride home.
On the bus, I just stood there staring at the aircons in the bus, since there was no sky to stare at.
It wasn't a good feeling at all; my stop arrived and I just dragged by bag out, heading home.
I have no idea why I'm feeling this way in the first place, it probably sounds weird but I guess thats just how I am- weird.

I'm really just a lonely shag right now. For very long.
Life is falling apart, and noone really knows. Or they don't care..
I just don't know.
You know the feeling when people start to float further away from you, simultaneously, like this was destined to happen or something..
It really feels scary.
Like, no one is gonna be there for you.
Were they even there for you, in the first place?
This probably leaves me something to ponder over for awhile..
Hope I get some answers.
I shall pray.

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